Pre-Prom and The Countdown Is Almost Complete.

If I make it through this night, it will be a minor miracle.

WHHS Senior Prom is tonight at Jericho Terrace.  Pre-Prom was at Zombiegirl’s best friend’s house (H).  I was on high alert while I snapped pictures and spoke to parents I haven’t seen in ages.  We all marveled how beautiful everyone was and how grown up they are.

As I spoke to these parents I constantly checked over their shoulders to make sure my kid and the boyfriend were okay.  I feel like I missed a lot of what they were saying…

We found out a few days ago that her boyfriend (Ken) was being threatened.  They heard through the grapevine that he was going to be “jumped” at Prom.  Not because he’s a bad kid, or a troublemaker (there are girls in the high school dating MS-13 members- THOSE parents have major problems, if they’re even clued in, which I am sure they’re not), on the contrary, he’s so good to my daughter and he treats her like gold.  The problem is the other boys who have a crush on Z-girl and will do anything (and they’ve proved that they will do anything) to get with her.  And it seems that anything includes beating up her boyfriend.

So what does a parent do in this case?  Did these kids forget Z-girl hunts and is handy with a rifle?  Does MR go sit in the parking lot to make sure our kids are safe?  Do I call the school?

It helps to have friends in the school system.  Just talk to one of them and they’re on the case.  These little hoodlums better watch their asses.  F*CK You, you little cretins.

Add insult to injury, one of H’s friends asked if he could come to Pre-Prom.  Seems they were all on a group chat and only those on the chat were invited.  This guy wasn’t, but he was a good friend of H.  I’ll give you one guess as to who he was taking to Prom.  Yes, the twat. Are you kidding?  This kid has the nerve to ask if he can bring this little troublemaker to my daughter’s best friend’s house?  H is a great kid- she told him to take a hike after he said he wouldn’t speak with her again.  Whatever- tonight, Graduation and she never has to see him again.  I gave her a hug and thanked her for looking out for my kid.  And a big F*CK You to the twat.  I better never find out where you live.

High school is a fucking soap opera.  A damn reality show- a really bad one- because these kids are utterly ridiculous.  I don’t live in the city where all the school kids are street wise, I live in the fucking suburbs.  Middle class all the way.  Yet we have to deal with this stupid gangsta attitude that all the kids appropriate.  As we walked around the backyard, Utah and I marveled at who we could and couldn’t talk to.  The drama and ever changing dynamics of teenagers is a fine line one doesn’t dare cross.

I’ll say it once again.  I’m done.  Three more days and we’re over this shit. I’m going to pour myself a drink and go through the 300 pictures I just took.  I’ll post the good stuff tomorrow.

 

 

 

Farewell, Panthers. The Countdown Continues.

Yesterday was the last. Game. Ever. The Panthers have been playing together since fourth (?) grade. A few players have left over the years and we’ve gained a few younger players these past seasons but the handful of core players have remained tight and close and would never think to give up or leave. Even with problems with former coaches, even when they lost every game in the season, even when they had knee/ankle/hip/eye/concussion injuries they still showed up and played. As much as I am excited about never having to think about my daughters high school experiences ever again, not having soccer in my life is going to leave me  a bit melancholy.

Don’t get me wrong- if you know me you know I bitch about practically everything involving going to the games, dealing with parents, listening to the stupidity of the other teams parents,  Zombiegirl’s moodiness, MR’s moodiness and the referees (who, btw, have become increasingly inept. I sometimes feel the girls are not only playing against the opposing team but also against the refs.) I will truly miss cheering the Panthers on. I will miss being on the sidelines to their silliness. I will miss the excitement of watching them running down the field closing in on the goal. Nothing beats watching your kid (and by extension, all my adopted Panther players) score that goal. Or meg the opposing team. Or listen to your coach husband encourage the girls to RUN! 

I’ve poured my heart out to a few of my soccer mom friends- you’re sitting there for an hour and a half-what else are you going to do but talk while watching the girls? Bonding on the field is special because you’re all rooting for the same outcome. My soccer moms will always hold a special place in my heart even if we’re not on the field anymore or if we no longer talk. Growing up, I was never on a team (I’m not counting after school CYO softball) so I never got to experience the bonding and fraternization that comes with having teammates. I was lucky enough to get that with my sideline mommas. We were another kind of team.

Yesterday they played RVC, a team they could have beaten but one mishap with an underage referee cost us the game. We went out with a 4-3 loss and a yellow card for MR because of our parents defending (yelling) the play. Our record was bleak this season, but it doesn’t matter because it’s over. Over over.

Afterwards there was food, there was cake, there were beers and there were tears. Families, players and coaches came together for the last time under the West Hempstead Panthers banner to say goodbye to the team that’s been extended family for 15 years.

Farewell Panthers. 

Awards, Dinners and the Countdown Continues…

Last week was the High School Girl’s Athletic Award ceremony at the neighborhood catering hall and last night was the award ceremony for Nassau County Softball Coaches Association award dinner at the Crest Hollow Country Club. It’s the second time this year we’ve accompanied Zombiegirl to the country club for an awards dinner (who said I don’t get out much!?)- the first time was in December when she won the Scholar Athlete award for Varsity soccer and tonight she won All-Conference player for Varsity softball. I’m so proud of my little jock. She certainly doesn’t get her athleticism from me.

I dragged my sorry sick butt out of bed to go to this overpriced dinner to honor all the softball girls in Nassau County.  Only two of the WHHS Varsity girls were chosen for the All-Conference award, Zombiegirl and the pitcher, Dana. It really was a lot of fun watching them play over the years.

Z-girl really excelled at softball.  She thoroughly enjoyed it.  I think it had to do with the coach- her soccer coach was an ass with zero personality and a hard-on (not in the sexual sense) for one of her team mates.  As he felt that girl could do no wrong, he felt the rest of them were beneath her and the favoritism showed.  Moral on the team was dismal and no amount of screaming and yelling from those two could lift it.  I was thrilled when Varsity soccer ended. My daughter was miserable on that team.  Five years with this coach and add insult to injury- he didn’t even acknowledge her Scholar Athlete award in the program.

Pfft.  So over it.

The softball coach was the opposite side of the coin.  He was personable (but not too friendly with the girls) and he was a bit sarcastic.  I know a few girls (and parents) didn’t like him and some even refused to move up to Varsity from JV.  But he knew his stuff, he knew the girls strengths and weaknesses and he knew what they needed to do to get wins.  Zombiegirl, for instance, is not a strong hitter.  But she can bunt and slap like a pro and she’s fast so seven times out of ten she made it to first to drive a run in.  A few of the asshat fathers didn’t comprehend Coach’s logic to signal her to bunt- they only complained repeatedly that she’s doing it again.  I stopped sitting with them because I couldn’t take their incessant complaining and derogatory comments about one of our outfield players.  Lord forbid someone said something about one of their kids. But they’re armchair coaches. One of them is overweight and the other is old- neither is fit enough to coach a team, they can barely walk to the field from their car.

Besides the asshats, I loved watching softball.  I tried to keep score and keep track of the innings, but because most of the games were chilly (something about the WHHS field- it was always beautiful and warm at the house but at the field it was always windy and cold.  And it’s only 1/4 mile away.) so keeping track was tough when you’re wearing gloves (I had an app).  I came prepared with my Lava Buns seat and extra layers and gloves and a hat, sunglasses and Uggs.  I don’t know how the girls kept warm on the bench and in the field.  That was the only thing the kid complained about, because the season started so early, it was cold.

But now we’re done.  She may play club ball in college or with a neighboring town.  Pick up games are a certainty. I may even join her if there are no age restrictions.  Scheduled games though are finished and we just got one step closer to putting an end to the high school experience.  Tick tick tick…

 

 

The Countdown, Inching Closer

How long does it take to slice 10 dozen bagels, including the time it takes to wash and dry the slice in one’s palm, put a rubber glove on to contain the blood (hey, I watch Chopped) take off the glove because someone eating said bagels may have a latex allergy, wash and dry the wound again and put a fabric (no latex!) bandaid on?

Twenty-eight minutes.

Today is Zombiegirl’s Senior breakfast at school. It’s the day they get their yearbooks and collect witticisms and song quotes from prople they’ve spent the majority of their lives with. They get to roam the halls and ask teachers to write nice things about them and these poor teachers have to remember a kid who was in their class four years prior and come up with something good.

It’s a good day in the life of a high-schooler.

For some reason, the parents are asked (again) to provide food for the Senior Breakfast. Not all the senior parents, just those who managed to get their name on an email list because they helped once before. There are approximately 180 Seniors and approximately 25 names on the list. And if those 25, approximately 1/2 volunteer to bring anything.

Is it any wonder that I’m so done with all this?

Beena’s brother-in-law works at a popular bagel place so I asked if they would donate or give me a discount on bagels.  Three out of four kids that go to our high school go to this bagel place on a regular basis so it didn’t hurt to ask. Joey came back with a great price for bagels (Thanks, Joey!) and since he went through all the trouble of bagging them up and delivering them, I didn’t want to ask him to slice them. He did say he would have if he knew, but I don’t like to take advantage of people doing me favors. 

Thus the cut on my palm.

So it’s June 5th and I have 20 more days and approximately 6 more things to do to get this kid graduated. Twenty-one more days until I call my life my own.

The Countdown Continues…

The recollection of hemorrhaging money when Beena and Utah were Seniors in high school is dim.  I remember spending what I thought was a lot on Beena’s prom dress and throwing them both parties for Graduation.  What I don’t remember is the constant begging for money/food/help from the Senior class moms and advisors and the kid herself.

Maybe because Beena worked since she was 14 and paid for some of the minor stuff that came up?  Idk. Idr.

Tonight is the last concert my child will ever participate in.  I woke up this morning a little sad that she won’t be continuing on playing the flute. ( If she did find that she wanted to play in college and beyond, we would have to buy her a new one because she lost MR’s flute a couple of years ago.  No one ever turned it in.  We’re still pissed about this…)  The sadness last a few fleeting moments, however, when I realized we’re going to have to sit through another two plus hours of mediocre music and enthusiastic backpatting.  I keep saying, “It’s the last one, it’s the last one…”

I don’t remember the older girls having a Senior breakfast and a Senior BBQ, either.  I was more involved in church activities at that point than I was in school activities.  Beware, new moms- once you get your name on an email list, you’re on it forever.  And since I’m not the type to turn down a request and simply ignore the email, I get roped into all kinds of $tuff.  Put a smile on my face and complain here, I guess, as I slice 10 dozen bagels and put together two trays of Caesar salad.  I hope my kid someday appreciates it and realizes I’m not the asshole parent who ignores the call to help.

And…speaking of assholes…

The other day I composed a Facebook post full of foul four-letter words and many exclamation marks.  To say that I was pissed off and hurting for my daughter would have sugar-coated it.  Let me tell you a story;

My normally popular and outgoing daughter has been withdrawn, cranky and upset for a year and a half.  Approximately the entire time she’s been dating her boyfriend.  She’s great when she’s with him, and she has some shiny moments but mostly she’s down and a little depressed.  Why? Because of the psycho her boyfriend used to date.  This girl, who’s a year younger than Zombiegirl, has been making my kid’s life hell.  I recognize that if she stepped away from social media, it would help, but some of the cattiness happens in school.  When my daughter says that the whole Junior class and half the Senior class hates her, my heart breaks.  I’ve seen the crap that’s tweeted and sub-tweeted and the text messages and snapchats and yes, it’s cruel.  It’s bullying.   She should close social media- she feeds into it when she (and the boyfriend) acknowledges it.  I don’t want to say she’s asking for it when she reads some of the stuff that’s written, but she needs to step away.  But she won’t.  That’s how they connect these days.

This twat, though- I want to call her parents and ask what the hell is going through their daughter’s head.  The Senior girls have a group chat where they post the prom dresses they’ve bought.  I love looking through and seeing all the little girls I used to know all grown up in their beautiful gowns.  The point of this group chat (and I think it’s brilliant) is so that no one duplicates a dress.  First come, first serve.  No one wants to spend a few hundred dollars on their special dream dress and run into it on someone else in the bathroom.

Can you see what’s coming?

Zombiegirl went to prom with her boyfriend last year- it was his prom, so she chose a very understated but elegant dress.  She respected the senior girls (she was a Junior) and scrolled through that group chat to make sure she didn’t buy a duplicate dress.  She saw plenty of elaborate dresses that she would have loved to buy, but in her words, it wasn’t her prom so she didn’t want to shine.

I love this kid.

She shone anyway, she was so beautiful.  They looked great together.

IMG_2808Unfortunately, other people don’t think like my beautiful daughter.

The twat was asked to prom by one of Z-girl’s former friends (turned by the twat) and her prom dress went up on the group chat.

It was Zombiegirl’s dress (posted months ago) in a different color.  Red.  The same color I saw when my daughter comes sobbing into the house after work and after finding out she bought the same dress.

What. The. Everloving. F*ck.  I want to rip this twat’s head off for hurting my daughter.  Tiger mom’s claws came out.  Thankfully, the claws came out on a few of Z-girl’s friends and they jumped all over her.  What I didn’t understand was some of the Senior girls defending the twat’s decision.  I’d like to know how they’d feel if someone duplicated their dress.  That’s when I wrote my inflammatory Facebook post.  And then took a breath and deleted it.  We were on our way to a soccer game and I didn’t want to get too pissy.  It felt better after I wrote it and Z-girl scored the only two goals of the game, so she also felt better getting the aggression out on the field.

The twat stated she would wear her Sweet Sixteen dress and return the other one.  I will cross my fingers she holds true to her word.  This bitch is slick though.  She accepted a prom invitation last year from Zombiegirl’s ex-boyfriend.  She’s a calculating 16-year old, and she knows how to press my daughter’s buttons.  When I asked Boyfriend why he broke up with her, he said she was psycho- controlling, clingy, manipulative.

You can tell your kids to ignore the “haters”, but they can’t.  It’s too hard for them.  So I tell my kid every day how many days left until freedom.  33.

 

The Countdown Has Begun

Tonight is the last time I will have to help at one of my kid’s schools. Ever.  EVER.  It’s the last event before Zombiegirl graduates and I am stoked that the countdown to June 25th has started.  We’re so over high school, this kid and I.  We can’t wait until this shit is over.

I’ve been a school mom for over 25 years.  I’ve served on the PTA, been class parent, fundraiser and chaperone.  I did my fair share as Girl Scout Leader (and GS parent, fundraiser, chaperone and cookie seller) and Sunday School Teacher/Youth Group Leader (and church parent, fundraiser and chaperone).  Sprinkle in soccer mom and dance mom and the resume is complete. I also managed to work a full time job and several part time jobs and ran several business in that time frame.

This is why I’m 80% gray.  This is why I have stress wrinkles.

But now the time I have left to parent this last child is dwindling.  I have this event tonight, then Prom then Graduation. My kid isn’t going away to college so I don’t have any crap to deal with over the summer and we won’t have to worry about plane and train schedules and meal plans .  I have to write a check for tuition and books and boom, my parenting responsibilities are practically over.

<Yippee>

I’m taking off the week after graduation and trashing the dining room with unfinished school scrapbooks and unfinished baby albums and tons of soccer pictures.  These will be finished and put away (or given to the proper recipient if they want them.  Probably not, I’m the sentimental one in my family.)  Once these two huge boxes of memories are out of my craft room I feel like I can start finding out what makes Mamasoo happy.  Sewing.  Playing with the grandkids.  Travelling.  Cooking.  Raising chickens.  Beekeeping.  Gardening.  Writing that damn book.  Renovating this damn house.  Finishing every last project I’ve half-assed or never finished because I just didn’t have the time.

June 26th is a day of Liberation.  This will be the day I get off Facebook.  No more fake friends because our kids go to the same school, or play on the same soccer field.   This will be the day we give up cable so we don’t watch the same crap over and over, melting our brains and eating into precious time that may be spent elsewhere.  This is the day I take back my life and allow myself to be a little selfish in my pursuits of happiness.

The countdown has begun.  Sixty days until freedom.

ETA: I was reminded at the event tonight that we still have to sit through the Spring Concert before Prim and Graduation. My gleefulness just fell a few notches… 

ETA again: I have to admit I skipped out on helping. We dropped some things off before the event and I promised to help clean up but by the time I dropped Utah off at her apartment and got back everyone was gone. Although I feel bad about not keeping my promise, I also feel slightly wicked for skipping out. Mommy guilt? Don’t know, don’t care anymore.

 

Easter Tide

I loved Easter when I was a kid.  My mom made sure I had a new dress, a fancy hat, lacy socks and new shoes.  Every year I got a new pair of  pretty white gloves.  My brother Robbie always got a new shirt and clip-on tie.  If he grew over the year, he got a new suit, or at least a new vest.  Mom was always dressed pretty and Dad looked so handsome in his suit.

The year Mom and I had matching dresses was heaven.  Navy blue with white daisies.  I thought we were The Shit. (I didn’t actually think those words, I was seven and didn’t say the word “shit” until I was 14.)

We always got up early to go to the 6:30 am service.  I didn’t like that part- it was as bad as getting up early to go to the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade and standing there freezing for hours.  Fond memories now, but at the time it was torture, especially the years we had snowstorms or it was an early Easter and it was freezing.  Poor me in little white shoes walking through snow.  I felt so grown up the year Mom let me wear tights.  It was cold that year too.

We sang Easter songs in school- “Here comes Peter Cottontail” and “Easter Parade”, songs I’m sure they don’t sing nowadays.  Teachers asked us to bring in ribbons and scraps of fabric and things to decorate our fancy hats and it was a stroke of luck if you could get your hands on some plastic or fabric flowers to glue to the brim.  We paraded around the school for our parents and we got to keep the hats.  We thought we were pretty enough for Fifth Avenue.

When I got older, I used to make Easter Egg treasure hunts for my brother.  I would put clues in the plastic eggs leading him from one hiding place to another.  When we were done, we would get our Easter baskets- pink plastic for me, blue for him.  We would get a few handfuls of candy that would sink to bottom of the basket so we would have to dig through the Easter grass to find them.  Chocolate rabbits and toys and stuffed animals and later on, makeup and small pieces of jewelry- my parents always knew what we liked.

Dinner was always at my Great Grandma’s house in Richmond Hill (and then later in the retirement village out East).  Grandma and Aunt Marion always had bowls of candy on the end tables and we were allowed to eat one piece before dinner.  It took an hour trying to decide which piece to eat. The kids (my cousins Tracy and Craig, my brother and I) would play in the yard or do gymnastics on the furniture.  When they lived in the retirement village, we would be allowed to go for walks and look at the statues people had in their yards (ducks dressed up in raingear, dogs with bunny ears).  Before dinner I would help set the table, taking the plates from the breakfront that now stands in my own living room.  I learned to set a proper table, fold napkins and which fork to use under the watchful eyes of the Arfmann womenfolk.

As I got older, these traditions carried over into my own family.  We got up early for church, the girls always had pretty new dresses (my mom insisted) and I did treasure hunts with eggs for the girls.  We took the girls for bunny pictures, went to the neighborhood egg hunt (and started it early the first year we went.  I got a little excited and shouted “GO”, lol).  I decorated the house for days, helped decorate the church and made sure the girl’s Easter baskets had everything they liked.

When we started going down to Grandma Jo’s house in Hilton Head for Easter, the celebration didn’t stop- the Easter bunny came to South Carolina and left baskets there and we attended early morning service on the beach.  One year Grandpa barbequed and it was different and wonderful.

Easter was always a big deal.  I loved the hymns and the service was so special.  “He is risen, Hallelujah!”

Because I no longer subscribe to an organized religion, the past few Easters have been very low-key.  I found a nearby church with my friend, but I’m hesitant to join and get hurt again.  I go when I feel I need uplifting or if I need communion with others. I didn’t go on Easter morning because I was scared it wouldn’t be “my” Easter service, the ones I’m used to.  Silly, I know.  I would rather live with good memories than try new experiences.  It’s just something I have to work out after my stint at St. A’s.

We didn’t even get the decorations out this year.  Beena and the grandkids went down to Florida and weren’t going to be back for Easter.  Only Utah and KevKev and his brother came for dinner and MR had to work. Dad went to Dorothy’s house and spent Easter with her family. Zombiegirl is 18 and doesn’t get a basket anymore.   We colored eggs after dinner ON Easter.  It was so different than the holidays of my past.  But that’s okay.  I feel recharged.  I have tons of ideas for when the G-kids come for Easter next (even if it isn’t on Easter Sunday.  They’ll be older and our traditions will be a blast.

And by then I may be able to set foot in church on Easter morning.

Easter Parade

by Irving Berlin

In your Easter bonnet, with all the frills upon it,
You’ll be the grandest lady in the Easter parade.
I’ll be all in clover and when they look you over,
I’ll be the proudest fellow in the Easter parade.
On the avenue, Fifth Avenue, the photographers will snap us,
And you’ll find that you’re in the rotogravure.
Oh, I could write a sonnet about your Easter bonnet,
And of the girl I’m taking to the Easter parade.